At age 10, latch key kid in rural Oregon, I'd see mom every few days, I learned to climb the tall wooden bookshelf to the top, where about 100 paperback books were, and I'd read the book cover to cover in a day. The 'juicy parts' that caught my attention, usually involved forcible rape. Like in "Peyton Place". I got an old typewriter, and began to type out my own fictional stories. A few months after turning 12, I had my first orgasm. Nothing upsetting or frightening, it was just "interesting".
At age 11, built a "fort" in an abandoned yard, rural suburban oregon, and neighborhood girls seemed to enjoy coming around, demanding to be the "queen" of my castle, and getting tied hands behind their backs, held captive until they could be rescued by some of the other kids who played at being their rescuer.
Middle school yearbook voted me "best built". Found out years later girls considered me to be "gay" because my autism made me incapable of holding a conversation with peers, especially girls. I was a 'jock' and did well in sports, wrestling and football, middle school and high school. Went on my first 'date', in my car, just after wrestling season, in my senior year of high school.
A month before the end of high school, met the woman I'd marry 3 yrs later. Year and a half college, then military mid 1960's. I was a "green beret". I had actual sex in mid summer, just after high school. Then in the service, on the weekends, I'd go into a bar with 100 people, and I'd have my pick of going home with any of the barmaids, on weekends.
I was in various 'fantasy' bulletin boards (what computer people did before "internet". Many nights joined US guys 'chatting' with Australian young ladies. Those days the roleplay was very public, usually with a couple people and then possibly dozens of onlookers. I got a rush from the verbal applause after a successful "climax" to a roleplay, usually involving "non-con".
A fav memory was roleplaying in DM with Lois at RavishU, she'd claim to be in RL tears after some of those. She'd send pics, with permission to experiment with my budding image edits. Some of the first ones were really bad amateur art.
https://i.imgur.com/sEaiu3f.mp4
To Lois with love... (Created by Neighbor, using AI tools)
